thinkin...

There was a long involved chain of thought that went through my head. It was curiously enlightening.

It started from a question of whether taking human life in any form is bad. Or in other words, is it possible to take one of jesus sayings like love your enemy or something like that and carry it to a logical conclusion that would end up being the total antithesis of what he meant. Bear with me.. i know im not making much sense just yet. So is there any reason human life should be sacrosanct? or are there any laws that we have that God should be bound by. It only seems fair... that God abide by the same rules he expects us to keep. and yet, they say it doesnt work that way; if we displease him, he can send us off to burn.
but we end up being his creation and so many things about our universe are arbitrary and fixed. the way we are.. the way God is.. and that makes all the difference.The simple fact is, you dont go to hell if you do wrong... you go to hell if you dont choose God. Hell is not punishment, it is existence without god.. and while proponents of God try to paint a scary picture of Hell, opponents argue that Hell is not really hell. They are convinced that existence apart from god is possible. and so we have the great divide.You must choose one or the other. and on this hangs your life.. the real issue i want to draw attention to is our resistance to being coerced. Yes, if God really forces me to decide, i might choose my own way apart from God. its how we are..and its definitely how I am and i think feeling that God is forcing us is why so many of us dont want God...who wants to be forced to kneel... to have your pride broken.. to grovel like some slave...
The real sticking point in my head is that when I think of the statement.. God makes all the decisions ultimately, or God decides who goes to heaven and who doesnt, it bothers me that he should have that power. I'm upset by it too, when i think about it. i mean, really, what right does God have to do such things? its no use telling me he created me... if he created me with free will, then it should be perfectly possible for me to become independent... isnt it strange that God would provide that and not the means to attain independence from him... ??

think about it.